Do It In Style

Hmm... I thought I'd posted here recently, seems I haven't. Well, where do I start? Well the amount of 'depressive episodes' have been increasing, it's become an almost daily occurrence. Although today's wasn't quite as bad as the last few; didn't feel like crying for hurting myself, so that's something. I'd say that what with the constant mood swings between (at times) suicidal depression and ELO-fueled happiness, within a fairly short amount of time, that this could be Bi-polar or some such thing. I'll add it to the list. Onto positives, yesterday I managed to present my English talk without falling apart in front of the class, though there was plenty of fallout that night. Today, I had Revolutions and we had to go into groups to do some stuff preparing for the exam (only a few weeks to go with it) and I found myself contributing, talking and joking about with 'em and not feeling over-anxious about it. It's taken a year in that class to get that far, but it's something.

Also, I'm thinking of getting my haircut this weekend, I hate getting it done (overly chatty hairdresser), but I think, as Keating said (a lot); It's Time.

Don't Bring Me Down

Fuck. There, that seemed the best way to start this post. No, you might of guessed, things are not going that well at the moment. Things are ramping up a bit, it's like the end of A Day in the Life, you know with all the sound 'n' music ascending to the end there (or like Peter Davison's regeneration at the end of Caves of Andozani for that matter). M'depression is hardly easing up, quite the reverse rather and my OCD's setting in more. Not that it hasn't for the last 17 or so years, but I've usually been able to keep it more or less in line when out in the real world. At home it's pretty bad, but I usually find that I can just about manage it when out 'n' about. Not so much now though. It's been getting steadily worse for sometime now, each day is becoming more and more like an episode of Monk... without the murders though. Anyway, that's all for now, time to try and cope whilst listening to ELO or something.